Disneyland....and so much more!

Well I know it's been to long but lately I've just been in an exploring mood and haven't had the chance to even figure out my thoughts let alone right them down. But here we go!


So we left for Disneyland on June 24th it was a typical rainy Seattle day. Luckily a few short hours later we landed and were welcomed by some very much appreciated sun and heat :) We spent our first day in down town Disney looking at shops and enjoying the weather! (Yes we both got burnt on our first day!) I was actually excited about it lol. Anyways...that night we went to see Cars 2 (its super cute!). Great way to start a birthday week and vacation with my love :) The next day Konrad woke me up bright and early to make sure we were in the park right when it opened! I'm so thankful he did! I actually had tears to my eyes when they welcomed us in. I don't know what it is about Disneyland but being there right at opening is something magical :) We spent the day riding rides and having a blast! At least until the corn dog incident! I ended up getting sick and spending some time back at the hotel trying to feel better. Luckily after a hour or so it was time to hit the park again! It was a blast. The following day was my birthday (June 26th). Konrad let me sleep in and we didn't end up hitting up the park until about 10am. I was totally okay with that! haha. First thing we did was visit city hall for my birthday pin and then to the "mad hatter" for my birthday ears that they special put "Becca's 20th" on just for me! Love them and such a great keepsake to have. The rest of the day we went on tons of rides and we were greeted with constant "happy birthdays" (its one of the things the workers are suppose to do and it helps make your day special!) Indiana Jones ended up being my favorite ride. We rode it at least 6 times and even stood in line during numerous breakdowns :) For my birthday lunch we hit up The Golden Horse Shoe. One of Konrad's favorite places because they have a funny comedy act with "Billy and the Hillbilly's". I enjoyed it and my surprise sundae :)


The dinner story.....so to back track on the first day at the park we rode pirates of the Caribbean. (for those of you who don't know this ride has a restaurant inside!) its hard to explain but pretty much your boat goes by all these tables that are lit with candle light:) I asked Konrad about it and he said that it was one of the most expensive restaurants in Disneyland and you have to have reservations months in advance to eat their. I was kinda bummed because it looked so romantic and cute but didn't think anything of it.......


Now fast forward....its about 6:30 the night of my birthday and Konrad said earlier that day he wanted to eat at seven. I was completely down for it since we had a late start to our day. So when 6:15 rolls around I start nagging about finding a place to eat because I was starving and wanted to be seated and eating close to seven. He kept taking his sweet time and wouldn't pick anywhere that sounded good to me.  6:45 hits and I'm tired of waiting I go find a place to sit and sulk. He comes over and says "fine lets go over to New Orleans square to look" so I'm following hoping we find something soon when BAM he walks right up to the Blue Bayou (the restaurant inside pirates!) I'm thinking "is he asking for a good place to eat" when all of a sudden he tells me to come over we have reservations for 7:10! What a punk hes made me wait and get cranky and now he hits me with one of the best surprises ever! I love that boy! It took forever to get seated but lucky us we got a table right next to the water so we could wave at the boats and one even sang happy birthday to me! Anyways we sit down and I reach to hold his hand when BAM again he pulls out a small little box (girls you know whats in it)...a ring...NOW HOLD ON BEFORE YOU GET TO EXCITED....its just a "I love you ring" I know Konrad would go to the end of the earth for me but he is also one of the most logical people I know and waiting for an engagement ring is what is best right now...I'm 20 and not ready to be married yet not even to the love of my life. But coming from him that meant the world. You see Konrad isn't fond of rings that are "just because" after seeing some things happen with his friends so for this to happen I was in total shock and completely thankful! Needless to say it was an amazing birthday and he did a fabulous job treating me like a "PRINCESS" :)

Our exciting adventures through Disneyland, California Adventure, and Knott's came to an end on June 29th. It was sad to leave. Konrad's been in love with the "Golden State" since he could remember and I just fell in love with the weather. Its hot but not humid! Perfect in a sense. We have now spent the time since planning our next trip to Vegas and trying to think of any way possible to make it back to oh so sunny Southern California!

Disneyland So close...yet so far!

It's been a while I know. There has been A LOT going on lately! So since my last post I've dealt with an allergic reaction to tanning/burning and now am in the process of getting over the worst of the hump of intense tooth pain.




The allergic reaction was bad. I had tanned two days in a row. Which is pretty normal except I didn't realize how much of a burn I had left from the previous day and therefore "double burned" resulting in hives and the worst itch I've ever felt in my life. Nothing helped it really. At least not for the long term. So for a good week or so I just had to deal with constant itch and stay away from heat as much as possible. Luckily that is all over now and I survived! :)

Now though I am currently dealing with this mouth pain. It all began 2 weeks ago over memorial day weekend. I was eating some skittles on the way up to shoot a gun for the first time (Yes my first time! but that's another story). Anyways I was enjoying my candy when all of a sudden I bit down on something that was not candy. I took it out and realized it was a piece of my tooth! GROSS! Sure enough I felt with my tongue the hole it had left in my back right molar. Luckily or unluckily I'm still not sure it had already had a root canal so I wasn't really in any pain. So almost a week later I went in to get the whole fixed. Little did I know that would start the worst pain I've felt in my life. They ended up having to numb my whole right side and literally dig into my gums to see how far I had really broken it. I knew I would be sore but man that was pain and it didn't get better, only worse. I had that done on Thursday and by Saturday night I ended up in the E.R. the pain was unbearable. I was put on numerous pain medication and antibiotics. Thankfully now I am beginning to feel better. The down side when I return from Disney I will have to experience getting my wisdom tooth removed! It happened to be the cause of all the pain! Erg...but I'm grateful I finally have answers!


Now were looking at 15 days until we leave for Disney! It's so exciting I'm getting pumped for this adventure. Its the first trip Konrad and I will take on our own. There has been many different opinions about this but I believe that our relationship was heaven sent and that God will be leading us where we need to be. I make my choices on faith alone and if I'm just on a journey that will end up in heartache so be it I won't regret a thing. This last almost 3.5 years has only been a learning experience from the start and if that's all it is in the end I thank God for teaching me things he did in a way I would understand and accept them. Nothing was ever forced upon me in this relationship its been all by choice. I had my opportunity out when we broke up for a short time. During that time I sought after my Jesus and prayed every night his will be done. Let whatever come from this break-up be not of my own will but of yours. I believe when Konrad wrecked his bike that night it was God saying here is your sign take it or leave it but I will direct you in the way that is meant for your life. I believe everything happens for a reason and that people really need to seek themselves and find their own beliefs. I once stood on every word by parents said, believed every little thing that flew out of my pastors mouth, and did everything in the way I was told was right. In that I found more questions, more gray areas, and myself more lost then I thought anyone growing as a teen should be. (This leads into another story of how heartache made me lose and find my Jesus all over again and in a future blog post I will explain). I now live my life trying to do my best and be my best in the eyes of my lord. I know I fall short, even every day. But my lord knows my heart, he knows where I stand, and with that he will guide me and "us" to where we belong together or apart we will end up where he wants us. So instead of judging take some time to listed to the story's that have brought us together, to the moments that have shaped our lives, and to the prayers we have spoke for one another.






With that said I'm going through so many emotions getting to Disneyland! I'm excited for the journey but I'm nervous for the rides (roller coasters are not my thing!). It will be a birthday to remember no matter what! It will be a test on our relationship that I'm ready to see the results. It will be life changing in that it will show me even more how independent I am and can be. It's going to be a (lack of a better term) Hell of a ride! 15 days just over two weeks and to think 2months ago it took me 30min to decide if I was ready for the commitment of booking the hotel and flight. Are we truly ready for this? I guess will find out!





Future Blogs...

...What brought us together and whats holding us there.

....When it all came crashing down...the heartache and the words left unsaid.

....Dear Grandpa...

...A letter to my father....

...Our Disney Adventure!...

Remembering Life and loss...5 years later...

On May 16th 2006 one of the closest people near and dear to my heart was taken from this earth....my life would be forever changed. Brandon Allen Brooks was and is one of the best men to ever walk this earth.

Lets back up to 2006 and the years before. You see at a young age I met Brandon in church. When I got my chance to go youth group early I had no idea I was going to be blessed with some of the best role models ever. Brandon was one of those. We quickly bonded, he became my brother. We joked, we fought, we laughed, we cried, and we talked. When I was 14 I hit hard depression it was one of the hardest years of my life just dealing with my life on a daily basis. He was there from day one. He was there to tell me it will be alright. He was there to tell me I'm worth something. He was everything I needed at the time. He gave me a verse that forever will be a part of my life...song of Solomon 4:7 all beautiful you are my darling there is no flaw in you". Because of that I was able to find myself again.


Now fast forward to the night of May 15th. I was up that night super late. No matter how hard I tried I just couldn't sleep. It wasn't to strange, I mean once my mind gets going it was common I would be restless. However this night I had the urge to right. I had the urge to write to Brandon what he meant to me. I always went to him and thanked him and told him I loved him but I wanted to make sure he knew how much he had meant to be over the last year. It didn't seem to strange I liked to let people know what I felt especially when it touched my heart and my life in big ways. This is what I wrote that night....


What you are to me...
You are someone who loves no matter what.
You are someone who listens before jumping to conclusions.
You are someone that gives advice not demands.
You are someone who really just trys to understand.
You are someone I can talk to without fear.
You are someone who is always near.
I can always count on a hug and smile from you.
I love especially the way you are just you.
Will all these things and more I know I can love and trust you just the way you are.


Remember I was just 14 at the time so my writing skills were not the greatest. But I was getting the points across. Once I wrote this I felt peace and soon after was able to fall asleep.


Now May 16th 2006...The next day...
It was a normal mid summer day. So much so that I don't remember to much of what I did that day. I do however remember the night clearly when I found out that Brandon was no longer hear on earth. By the time Jen got to my house to get me I had pieced what was going on. I knew he was gone but nothing was confirmed. She arrived gave me a huge hug and told me to get in the car (she showed amazing strength to hold it together). She told me we were going to our youth pastors house. At this point I knew what happened and was super tense but until it was confirmed I wouldn't let it out. It was the longest 10min ride of my life. Once we arrived my youth pastor sat me down and Jen sat beside me. I held her hand tight as he told me "Brandon has gone to be with Jesus" My first reaction was pissed..."are you really talking to me like I'm 5 years old right now?" Then he had told me what happened it was then that I broke down. It was officially the beginning of what would forever change my life and the person I would become. At 14 I grew up fast.  How was I going to deal with this? How was I going to accept death at 14. How was I going to get through this when he was the one that was helping me get through everything?

5 Years Later....I'm getting through. I've spent much time with those I love over the years. Doing many things to keep his memory alive. I have a routine every year when the day comes up. Time does heal thankfully but you never forget the one who impacted your life so much at such a young age. I never give up on things because that is what Brandon had instilled in me. Work your hardest and you do anything. I have gone through a lot with his passing and after and I'm able to stay strong because of knowing Brandon. I'm now finishing my A.A.S. degree and working at an amazing job where children steal my heart and make me laugh everyday. I have an amazing boyfriend of 3 years that is my world and has completely accepted all my flaws and my past. He truly is a gift from above and has the biggest heart I've seen in a long time. Life is still life and it has its instability but I still live it everyday to the fullest just the way Brandon did.

I still find myself telling new people I meet about how I lost my brother, my best friend, my mentor, the worlds best man. I tell them how great he was. How lucky I am to have known someone so great. How I don't often cry over his death because his life blessed me so much.



May 16th 2006 was hands down the hardest day of my life thus far....5 years later on this milestone its still one of the hardest days to deal with. I try my best to celebrate his life and now dwell in his death. Brandon was amazing and will always be seen as that way in my heart. His memory lives on and someday when I make it to eternity we will meet together again.

This ones in God's hands!

A conversation that led to sooo much... 
So much goes on in relationships and I love every part because no matter the good or the bad you learn and you grow. Lately I've been hitting struggles and I welcome them with open arms because I know of the experience I'll get from them. It's hard to wonder and not know what the other person is thinking or how they may interpret something but at the same time its a opportunity to learn to not worry and to learn to have patience and understanding! This has been a huge one for me recently. I didn't realize how "ME" centered I've become in my relationship. I know that I'm the girl the "princess" and I do think I should be treated like one but with that comes the prince. I mean I don't have to be with him I choose to be so in return if he chooses to treat me right he deserves the same in return. I've learned that some people aren't ready for the same things you are but that doesn't mean they don't love you any less. I run into communication issues with my relationship a ton they have had there good and bad times over the last three years and its all apart of growing and changing.

Lately I need to be more understanding and he needs to be more open both huge struggles we have faced our entire lives. This is where I lay it all in God's hands. I know he is the only one who can truly open our hearts. He's the one that knows our futures and because of that I give this to him. It's up to me to try to be as understanding as I can. As well as communicate in a that can be understood and not all about me. Where it goes from there is God's. His timing and his ways. See as a little girl I've had it planned that I wanted to be married at 23 a kid at 25 my life was set. As long as I could raise my child without daycare and I could work part-time I didn't need anything more just my little family. Well reality sucks I'm about to be 20 and have finally come to terms with the fact planning a wedding at 3 doesn't do you any good when God decides when and whom you will marry.

 So with all this I've learned 3 big things....1. Be willing to understand and communicate in a way that is successful and also loving for both of you. 2. Don't plan your future your not really in control of it. 3. Enjoy the journeys and relationships you get to experience in life...take in every opportunity you can to learn from them. No matter how short or how long...if its for a year or forever. Learn everything you can and enjoy all that you can. That is what your really in control of everything else will fall into place because it's the way its SUPPOSED to be.

A little about this princess....

This first post is to welcome you to my blog and get a little understanding about me. First off the name "the life of a princess" is not a some stuck up title I thought of. Its a name and title I try to live by given to me by the men in my life and my heavenly father. You see my Heavenly father is the king of kings therefor when I was born into his world I was born a princess. My father also thinks so...hes called me his princess girl since I can remember. My boyfriend treats me like a princess. I try to hold to the name. 

Anyways with that being said hes some more about me....

I'm currently try to get through my last days of a teen as smoothly as I can. No one can ever prepare you for your teen years and I think I believe the same of my 20's but I'm preparing myself for lots of fun and change. I'm currently dating the love of my life and best friend for the past 3+ years...our story is amazing and I would love to share it someday....it continues to amaze me! I'm going to school to get a General AA and then hopefully focus on social work and psychology...not sure where I want to go with it but I have a passion for kids and mentoring. I work at a gym its a love/hate relationship but I'm beginning to love it more then hate it....I love my co-workers and am learning to enjoy my job everyday! I have many ins and outs of my life bottled up and hopefully through this blog will be able to share them all. I have a desire to get my thoughts and feelings out and hopefully it will help me grow as well as maybe help someone else. This is me in a short statement but I guarantee if you continue to read my blogs our eyes will be open to much more of the ins and outs of me and my life...from challenge to triumph and everything in between :)