The allergic reaction was bad. I had tanned two days in a row. Which is pretty normal except I didn't realize how much of a burn I had left from the previous day and therefore "double burned" resulting in hives and the worst itch I've ever felt in my life. Nothing helped it really. At least not for the long term. So for a good week or so I just had to deal with constant itch and stay away from heat as much as possible. Luckily that is all over now and I survived! :)
Now though I am currently dealing with this mouth pain. It all began 2 weeks ago over memorial day weekend. I was eating some skittles on the way up to shoot a gun for the first time (Yes my first time! but that's another story). Anyways I was enjoying my candy when all of a sudden I bit down on something that was not candy. I took it out and realized it was a piece of my tooth! GROSS! Sure enough I felt with my tongue the hole it had left in my back right molar. Luckily or unluckily I'm still not sure it had already had a root canal so I wasn't really in any pain. So almost a week later I went in to get the whole fixed. Little did I know that would start the worst pain I've felt in my life. They ended up having to numb my whole right side and literally dig into my gums to see how far I had really broken it. I knew I would be sore but man that was pain and it didn't get better, only worse. I had that done on Thursday and by Saturday night I ended up in the E.R. the pain was unbearable. I was put on numerous pain medication and antibiotics. Thankfully now I am beginning to feel better. The down side when I return from Disney I will have to experience getting my wisdom tooth removed! It happened to be the cause of all the pain! Erg...but I'm grateful I finally have answers!
Now were looking at 15 days until we leave for Disney! It's so exciting I'm getting pumped for this adventure. Its the first trip Konrad and I will take on our own. There has been many different opinions about this but I believe that our relationship was heaven sent and that God will be leading us where we need to be. I make my choices on faith alone and if I'm just on a journey that will end up in heartache so be it I won't regret a thing. This last almost 3.5 years has only been a learning experience from the start and if that's all it is in the end I thank God for teaching me things he did in a way I would understand and accept them. Nothing was ever forced upon me in this relationship its been all by choice. I had my opportunity out when we broke up for a short time. During that time I sought after my Jesus and prayed every night his will be done. Let whatever come from this break-up be not of my own will but of yours. I believe when Konrad wrecked his bike that night it was God saying here is your sign take it or leave it but I will direct you in the way that is meant for your life. I believe everything happens for a reason and that people really need to seek themselves and find their own beliefs. I once stood on every word by parents said, believed every little thing that flew out of my pastors mouth, and did everything in the way I was told was right. In that I found more questions, more gray areas, and myself more lost then I thought anyone growing as a teen should be. (This leads into another story of how heartache made me lose and find my Jesus all over again and in a future blog post I will explain). I now live my life trying to do my best and be my best in the eyes of my lord. I know I fall short, even every day. But my lord knows my heart, he knows where I stand, and with that he will guide me and "us" to where we belong together or apart we will end up where he wants us. So instead of judging take some time to listed to the story's that have brought us together, to the moments that have shaped our lives, and to the prayers we have spoke for one another.
With that said I'm going through so many emotions getting to Disneyland! I'm excited for the journey but I'm nervous for the rides (roller coasters are not my thing!). It will be a birthday to remember no matter what! It will be a test on our relationship that I'm ready to see the results. It will be life changing in that it will show me even more how independent I am and can be. It's going to be a (lack of a better term) Hell of a ride! 15 days just over two weeks and to think 2months ago it took me 30min to decide if I was ready for the commitment of booking the hotel and flight. Are we truly ready for this? I guess will find out!
Future Blogs...
...What brought us together and whats holding us there.
....When it all came crashing down...the heartache and the words left unsaid.
....Dear Grandpa...
...A letter to my father....
...Our Disney Adventure!...
